Its my Party... ::tear::

Sunday, May 29, 2005

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It's so rainnnny but well..luckily no thunder or lightning
or else i would be screaming like mad girl

Yesterday went down to scool
to accompany Huda to do her interview with the womens' soccer team
stayed there to watch the match
well..there were no goals scored
kecian seh huda..she didn't bring her specs and could not enjoy the match
but it's ok..at least she managed to get the contacts
wish her success on her first article
=)

Rite now..i'm enjoying Toblerone..
Yeah Yeah..so long nvr get to eat choc

Oh yeah..
my sis just bought new speakers with the sub-woofer too
for my computer..
so now..nobody going to laugh at me anymore
abt me not able to listen any songs
Blueek!!

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

:::...I'm Back...:::

it's been a few days i didn't update..
busy dlw songs..
Yeah!Yeah!
managed to get "Rock Ur Body Mic Check 1..2.."
i'm addicted to the song already..

Just received a testimonial from ayuL
and gosh! yeah..i missssh her..
one of my best buds..

well..it's ok..i'm not offended by whatever she wrote in her blog
serious..
i feel it too..sometimes when we need a friend..
we just dunno who to turn to
but ayuL!
i'm here ok..it's like so many times i've been telling you dat
u got a friend in me..

//psss..if u still feel shy to talk to me..
u can..hmm..
write to me like we used to do during our sec sch years..
remember?//

Sab msg me a few days ago at 6.30 am
was so surprised..
misssh her too
she had been busy with her work.. never-ending story
thought of planning to meet my old buds again
and this time..i hope Sab will be there
but not confirm yet..

Yesterday abg amir came over and send Hakeem
before going to work..
Ryann Hakeem is soooo cute!
And he liked to make faces at me..Hmmph!

Things between me and Wan..hmm..i dunno
like a roller coaster..
i wish and really wish things will be better for us
=)

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

:::...Bizarre Love Triangle...:::

Every time I think of you
I got a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem with mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of the fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

* yeah yeah!!finally got to send huda this song..for the past few days,i was like trying to convert this track into mp3 format
Just loooorve this song (Fronte vers.) a lot..Enjoy!*

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Friday, May 20, 2005

:::...Blueek...:::

heya..it's me here again
just finished burning songs for my sis and me
didn't go out all the day today
pretty lame aight..
it's ok

abg amir came over to house and did his e-learning for the cab vocational training
hmm..i guess now i know
why people can't be bothered with the driving theories
can be such a bore
@ least i can learn a bit abt road rules & regulations just now

i only msg Wan this morning and he too..
i guess he must be very busy with his work
jiko signed into the msn and told me that they are having show today at American Club
i asked him where is my syg..
well..i guessed it..he was busy..
it's ok
=)

i have no idea how am i going to spend my so-called holiday
perhaps be a couch potato..
nooo..dun want to grow fatter..
haiz..

next week..i'm going to scool for a Bridge Leaders' Meeting with the Chairman
bleah!boooring..
i dunno whether it's rite for me to say this but i'm going to say anyway
no offence..
this club thingy is becoming lamer each day
no wonder i have never joined Clubs since primary scool
i think i just have to go with the flow..aiyah..

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

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i thought this morning will be a good one for me
since i had a bad previous night..
so i shall update now..

firstly,i screwed HR's paper yesterday
i think i had lost more than 20 marks with the huge blank spaces i left in my answer
haiz..
i dunno lah..who would care anyway?

went to J8 to accompany Huda to buy PappaRoti..
"Father's of all Roti"..i find the caption rather cute
even breads have papa..hehe

naj and me planned to meet at bishan but she finished class late
so i thought of meeting her at CP

*thanks huda for accompanying me*

jiko called me up and i knew it must be my bill
hmmm..i have to find 32 bucks more to pay the bill off

while waiting for naj, i saw Khairul pendek
my primary scool fren last time..we didn't talk..just smiled..
finally naj reached at..hmm..dun remember wat time
went to Kovan to buy her fren's birthday gift necklace is so pretty pink..well..even though it is pink but still nice.

we didn't know where to go next so sat down at the bus stop for quite some time
then i remembered..i have always wanted to see the mysterious White House at Punggol
we went down to Punggol interchange
and saw the old tattered house still standing strong in the middle of the field
looks scary..given the fact that the place is so stranded and bared..

i was thinking of meeting Wan after he finished work
but how would i know..i could not make it..
haiz..
he was disappointed with it..

at night after we hung up..he went to ssdc to book his lessons
after that..he wanted to meet me for a while
but i told him..i could not..even for a while
he became upset abt it
i didn't msg him good night coz i cried myself to sleep
he didn't msg me too

arrghh...this morning..
was abt to msg Wan good morning..he msg me first
we were finding fault with each other again.
why does he like to assume things abt me?
so was he trying to say that he's been assuming my love for him too?
how could he?
i am really disappointed with him this time
gosh..feel like crying now..
perhaps if i'm gone..he will learn to appreciate me

*love me when i'm gone*

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hOla aIn~

1stly: yr weLc0me..!
2ndly: haizz..sabar je ngan AbG WaN awak tuu..evry relati0nship has their ups & d0wns ritey? u taught me tt.. u'lL hv t0 be patient..aNd u'lL survive thR0ugh this..k..? =)

taKe caRe n nj0y yr h0lz..

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

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firstly wanna wish myself and Wan a very
Happy 11th months together
wah..how time flies..
next month..we are going to be 1 year already
=)

i ate a lot of mangoes this afternoon and still craving for more
just looorve mango a lot..
and yeah..
i got to satisfy my craves yesterday by buying 1 egg tart and 1 custard pie at Polar's
Triplelicious!!
Planning to buy again tomoro after my paper
kekekeke..

and anyway..the IAP is cancelled (again)
bleah... :P
just hope my chances are better next time round
it's ok..i understand

ok lah..no matter how lazy my bum is..
i'm going to force my eyes to open big big and revise for HR

adios!

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Monday, May 16, 2005

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was feeling bored this noon
so surfed the webby for blogskins
and came across this cute 'me to you' bear skin
could not resist it

i just tried my luck and deleted my previous template
and pasted the new one..
yeah..in the end i got a new skin

*haha..sorry nads darl!kept changing my skin

sometimes we are not sure of what we are feeling
it's so hard when comes to matter of the heart
dun worry darl..i'm here..
=)

i also have inserted a video of Greenday
i love the song...
Holiday..\m/

Wan called me this afternoon and told me he had an accident last night
i was like "Huh?!"
He told me that he was going out last night with his members
never thought it was a car ride
luckily nobody was injured..made me worried..

can anybody explain to me..
what is the real meaning of possessive towards ur loved one in a relationship?
Are u being possessive coz u care for the other party or just feeling insecure of losing the other party?
i have no idea..

i really felt bad for jiko..
he has some probs and need a listening ear
but in the middle of conversation, my net connection was disconnected
so he could not tell me further abt his probs
i mean he's a good fren of mine and i feltbad abt it

*sorry jiko*

i accompanied huda to buy her hair-clip (yg dulu-dulu punye)
wondering of what kind of clip she was reffering to..
when i saw it at Montip..i was like "Oh!!"
haha..she is so excited of meeting arin tomoro..
actually i miss that feeling a lot..
the feeling of anxiousness and excitement of meeting someone u like

thought dat i could talk to Wan longer on the phone
but he did not sleep since yesterday
it's ok..

~ poof!! nitez ~

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:::...I'm n0t Perfect...:::

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I can only be me,
I'm sorry I'm not perfect
Like the girl you want me to be.

I'd give anything to make you happy
Even if it makes me sad,
I'd never do anything to hurt you
I don't try to make you mad.

Sometimes you get angry
And we begin to fight,
Little do you know
I cry myself to sleep at night.

Sometimes I don't know
Just what I did wrong,
I don't understand
Why we don't get along.

Every time we fight
I wish you could feel my heart break,
Sometimes I wonder
How much more my heart can take.

Sometimes I get so angry
I don't know what to say,
I feel just like a game
That everyone wants to play.

The only thing I need in this world
Is someone who is true,
The only thing I want in this world...
Is to be loved by you.

*When i read this poem, it made me realise dat perhaps it's true whenever people says,
"You get what you see" or "Accept me for who I am coz I ain't gonna change for you"
Sounds familiar? Actually..I said those words too but in fact, as time goes by..
You will realise that you will do anything to make other part of u happy even to change yourself. I don't deny that fact.*
You tell me..
The bottom line is..
~ Nobody is perfect.Learn to accept each other's flaws if he/she's ur true one ~

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

:::...bl0op blo0p bl0op...:::

feeling sooooo bored now
and i really mean it.
from this morning..
i have been sitting in front of the comp
well..
my sis asked me to dlw songs for her

*thanks to jiko and huda who sent me the songs*

i was supposed to study but did other things
hmm..opened the CBZ module book
and browsed through but surprisingly i didn't fall asleep
muahahaha..
dat's good enough rite?

Wan went for a lunch date at Hyatt just now
and he didn't tell me who he went with
Hmmph!!takpe...
Blueek!!

He's not working today..
wished i could meet him but i dun think mak allows me
and he have something to settle with me still
but it's ok..
he should settle the more important stuffs

yesterday he told me dat he is free on monday
but unfortunately,
he had to go to office at 10 am
so will not be meeting him after paper
haiz..

i feel like eating egg tarts and ice cream ah..
arrghh!!
been thinking about it..

i really need to get new speakers
but i dunno what type is suitable for my CPU
clueless ah..

*yawn*
i dunno what am i tired for..

Wan had a House Party yesterday
and msg me..i guess he was not doing anything
i'm so sorry..
perhaps he need company coz he was bored
but i was really sleepy
msg him half-way and fell asleep
all i could think was sleep!
urrghh..
so bad of me..

i really hope i will be able to do tomoro's paper
:S

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Saturday, May 14, 2005

:::Quotes:::

"Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand it.
To be in love is to respect this."

"Many a time,
It is our attitude that determines,
How we look at Life."

"The best and most beautiful things
In the world cannot be seen or touched.
They must be felt with the heart."

"It is better to be loved and lost,
Then never been loved at all."

"Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with it's heart,
And not with it's mind."

"Hanya pada mu,
Ku serahkan segalanya,
Kau bertakhta di nurani,
Anggun cinta mu abadi."

"Is there nothing at all,
That i can do to turn your heart
Is there nothing to lean on,
That i could help erase the scars
And i could use a little strength before i fall."

"A sad thing about life is when you meet
Someone and fall in love, only to find out,
In the end that it was never meant to be
And that you have wasted years on someone,
Who wasn't worth it."

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Friday, May 13, 2005

:::...headache...:::

woke up this morning
and had my terrible heachache again
force myself to wake up
to clean up my house.

didn't update yesterday as
my comp was sent for repair
thanks to ayah..w/o him..
i dunno what would i do

on wed..i dunno how to put it
redza was frustrated as his appeal was unsuccessful
but after he went back,
sahida and JJ told me and huda
dat Mrs Heng was looking for Red
to let him know dat he could sit for the paper
huda called him up
and trust me..everyone was really trying to persuade him
it was a chance to be grabbed

alhamdullilah..
he was given the chance..
hope he will realised dat all his frens are concerned for him
well..yeah..
he msg to apologise...it's ok..
=)

i was really bored yesterday
didn't feel like studying..(since when i feel like studying??)
but well,msg Wan and asked him out
since he was not working

Yeah..Yeah..
got to meet him..miss him..
like always..we didn't know where to go
as we were both broke
so went to T2 (our last resort)

i had 5 bucks left..
we were hungry so we went to the staff canteen
but he wanted to eat chicken rice
so i told him to eat..i no need to eat
but he refused..
ok..in the end..
we used $5 we had
amazingly we got to eat and had a drink for ourself
probably..this is what we called 'berkat'.

well..i think my heachache had gone down a bit
after napped for 2 hours..

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

:::what a morning..:::

came to scool this morning
attended assembly..
saw JJ and was surprised
he came for assembly??
but he went home to sleep

Alemak..
left the 2 survivors..
ok no lah..
there was Joseph too..
intended to study HR (like real..ain) at canteen
but ended up eating and eating

both of us grown sian already
decided to go photocopy notes
and huda..i can't imagine a person having a photocopier in her house
muahahaha...joking..
perhaps i can request help from u next time ard
:p
went to self-access room
and guess wat??
i did CBZ e-tutor..
finally..100%

just came back from meeting Mrs Lee
abt the IAP..
@ least i'm not alone
really hope i can cope the work
aiyoh..
and the guy whom i dun like (no names mention)
is also in the IAP..
wat the hell..

* missing Wan rite now *

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

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@ last Wan msg me..
when i was on the bus
he sounds depressed
so i asked him to call me

we didn't talk dat long
is he hiding something from me?
i could not control my tears
dropped a tear or two durin the bus ride

went to prima (again) with huda
kita lagi..
=)
bought a slice of cake..yummy!

i really didn't know what to do
thanks..huda..for ur opinion
even though it made me cried

we sat down at the interchange
we delibrately missed our buses twice or was it thrice?
actually waited for Wan's reply

*sorry huda..until u went home a bit late*

i could not bear anymore..
rushed to the toilet and cried and cried
didn't want my mom and sis to see me cry
once entered my room,
i gave him a missed call

Surprisingly,
he called and sounds happy
he did not sound angry a bit
felt relieved and happy too
we talked for hours until we hung up
cos we wanted to watch CSI

the bottom line is..
i will try my very best to save this relationship
coz i really syg Wan a lot
=)

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:::why does it seem so hard?:::

gOOd mOrning..
meeting huda @ 9.45 am
so update my blog now

woke up..
@ 8.15 am and msg Wan
but no reply from him
called him @ 8.30 am
but he was like..
lazy to talk to me
w/o saying goodbye..
i hung up

*sigh*
is he still angry with me
dat i didn't call him?

i'm really feelin very tired
arguing over pathetic matters
and trying to make things rite
i did all i could do
but it's just didn't turn out rite

what have i not done?
=(

~ update again later ~

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Monday, May 09, 2005

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i've been waiting for his call
or even a msg..
i dunno..
perhaps he's very busy
going to msg him later b4 i sleep

rite now..
listening to Akon 'Lonely' on 89.7fm
yeah..
feeling quite lonely now

me and huda went to cp
to get a cake..
went to and fro..
really had a hard time deciding
hehe.. =)
but eventually i got to choose a choc cake
@ prima deli
for tomoro's class farewell party
specially for ms koh..

received a msg
notified dat my plan had been changed
ape lagi..
24 hrs free incoming
kekekekeke...

*yawn*
i'm still trying to find a way
how to put a comment section..

oh my..
next week will be my exams
urrghhh..
what a drag!
:P

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:::...we beLong tOgether...:::

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you,
so I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt

The feeling that I'm feeling
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, cause baby
(We belong together)

[chorus]
When you left I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody better
Oh, baby baby, we belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Saying to me"If you think you're lonely now"
Wait a minute
This is too deep (too deep)
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life, baby

*Mariah Carey*

~thanks to Qie who sent me this lovely song~

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:::FinaLLy..:::

Hmm..
checked my hp yesterday
realised dat my line was back
msg jiko if it's the new plan or
my pathetic previous line

...Yeah Yeah...

Aiyoh..
need to pay 10 bucks
for the new plan
*Powervalue 100*
in 5 days time,i'll get a new plan
really hope it will help to lessen the bill payments

~ thanks to my Wan..he had helped me a lot ~

Thanks..
to naj's fren, Sufie
he helped me with the blog yesterday
=)

Haiz..
called Wan but he off his hp
he must have been busy with his shows
=(
thought of calling him and let him know
my line is back

Well..
received a private missed call
really hope it was Wan
@ least i know he was thinking of me

Lastly..
sent a good nitez msg to Wan to end my day
slept at 12am after watching Arts Central

~ gotta update again later ~

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

:::reaLLy fiTs me weLL:::

Trevor

You are a Toad croak! Meaning you are a
fairly normal person! You are mostly a happy
person, getting on with your life with only a
few croaks and moans! You are also a practical
person and probably quite a hard worker. You
enjoy the simple things in life like the
company of your friends, going shopping or to
the cinema, reading a good book and being with
your family or loved one.

Your good points
are that you are even tempered, fairly happy go
lucky and a good friend to have around! Your
bad points are that you sometimes lack the
drive to succeed, being happy with what you
already have. Which really, isn't such a bad
point at all!

Mostly content with your life,
you are a happy, well-rounded person!

Are you a Princess, Enchantress, Faerie, Mermaid or Toad? (with pictures!)
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:::i need heLp!!:::

It's been raining since morning..
And i feel so sleepy (what's so surprising?)
Woah!it's so dark in my room now..
Can i sleep again?Nooo..mom will scream at me again

I could not remember when was the last time i updated
I realised it's just not me to write diary and publish it on net
Well,i guess..
i will still keep updating my blog

But first..i need help..
Really need to change everything
In the template..
Then i can continue updating..

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The Chick

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Republic Polytechnic
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